Genri/Principles - Imashimeru

I trained at Aunkai tonight and realised that I have to be strict and stick to principles. In my training recently I have really begun to realise some key principles. However tonight when I did free practice my ego took over and I wanted to be aggressive and impress and I forgot my body principles. This is not practice and has no meaning.
This is why Akuzawa sensei spoke before about the importance of "imashimeru". Imashimeru means to tighten, control and discipline your mind, body and heart. When you you want to go crazy and use all your muscle you must control and use Bujutsu body movement principles only. Same with thinking, it must be always controlled and not let free to run wild.
Changes are only made though consistent daily implementation and action of an idea, nothing else works.

Who is the problem

If the same problem follows me everywhere I go then I have to accept that there is a high likelihood that I am that problem. I can moan, complain and feel sorry for myself, buts it my responsibility to fix the problem. It's alway my responsibility, this is the hard road of Bujutsu and applies to everything in my life if I am to truly stick to principles of bujutsu.
I have to change my ingrained habits, negative emotion and reactions that happen in my mind and in my body in order to change my spirit to a true spirit of Bujutsu.
Monk Shidejian said when he was younger if you touched him or looked at him the wrong way he would fight. Now he says after many years practice you can slap his face hard or punch him and he will just smile at you. I think his spirit has changed, he has taken responsibility for this change through his own training and self discipline.

Annimals

If I think about a dog or a cat! How does it move? From where does it get it's power and agility? It moves by it's spine... It's spine is very free , so it can move very naturally. Now how does a human who walks on 2 legs get the same freedom of movement in the spine? This is key to bujutsu......